I have just been reading this fabulous book that my best friend bought me for my birthday called All my Friends are Superheroes by Andrew Kaufman. It talks about people either having a superpower or being regular. It’s a lovely short read and made me stop and think about my own superpower...Bipolar Affective Disorder or B.A.D for short. In the book one of the superpowers is:

Wild Mood Swinger
“One of the few superheroes to wear a costume, Wilde Mood Swinger is never seen without his large-lapelled polyester plaid leisure suit with white shoes and a matching belt. Blessed with the ability to achieve the highest emotional heights and cursed with the ability to sink to the lowest emotional depths, Wild Mood Swinger often does so during the same conversation. Strangely attractive to women.”

When he talks about wearing a costume, I feel that’s what I do every day. I don’t know about anyone else, but I find I put on this everything is fine and dandy cape which in essence is this happy facade that everything is okay and that I’m fine. Yet in reality, I am sometimes far from it but I feel like it’s my duty to put on this brave face. I have gotten so used to it that I sometimes struggle to take it off and be real about how I’m feeling inside.

I feel those that have cyclothymia may be able to emphasise when Kaufman describes the rapid cycling of the moods Wilde Mood Swinger has . Although I have to admit I can also experience similar cycling; where one minute I can be perfectly fine and the next I feel blue all of a sudden and I often can’t pinpoint how, what or why it has come on. Bipolar is a fickle illness that at times you feel you have it all figured out but then all of a sudden it takes you by surprise and leads you down a path you never knew existed.

I find the last bit of the description is accurate I believe for both men and woman. There’s something I find so attractive about bipolar people.

Maybe it’s the fact that we just instantly get each other without much effort.

Maybe it’s the fact that we don’t have to explain ourselves.

Maybe it’s because we have similar lived experiences that no one else has gone through.

Maybe it’s because we feel that we have found a kindred spirit.

Maybe it’s because we know what it’s like to have the intoxicating highs and then the crashing lows that make us question life and our existence.

Maybe it’s because we get the struggle.

Maybe it’s because we both grieve for the missed opportunities, the lovers that could have been, the life we could have had and the list goes on.

The take home message is that bipolar need not be a burden, it can give you much more than you realise. For example, I have found a lot of bipolar people are extremely creative, intelligent, giving and able to do more things in a day than most people can in a week! If you decide to look at having bipolar through a positive lens you are able to see and do so much more than if you were to put on your negative ones; it really all comes down to your attitude about your bipolar. Someone once said to me that I should regard my bipolar as being special, moreover I am not bipolar I am a Wizard and the rest of the mere mortals without bipolar are Muggles who will probably never understand my greatness.

 

Now after all you have read do you still think I am bonkers to think that having bipolar is a superpower?!?

I will leave that for you to decide.